16 Weeks: Dear Spawnie... I'm Sorry.

Dear Spawnie,

I think there's something very important you should know about your mom... See, I'm a little crazy sometimes. Now don't get scared, I don't mean crazy like screaming and yelling and things of that sort... You won't hear me yell very often if ever. But I guess what I mean so say is that I'm a little goofy, and I'm really competitive. I think this is a good quality for the most part but sometimes I wonder how much of this will rub off on you, and how much pressure I'll put on you.

I keep telling your daddy that you're going to be a football player and win the Heisman.. Oh yea, did I mention I think you're a boy? I'll be really surprised if you're not, then we're gonna have to rethink this Heisman thing. But anyway, you dad says most professional players don't win that and that the percentage of people who do is like sooooo small. I just tell him someone's gotta win it, why not you? The fact that your dad and pretty much no man in our family has played college football may hurt your odds but I don't think it's impossible.

Don't worry I'm not gonna be one of those crazy moms that's yelling at the refs at the game. I don't like those people now so I'll work hard to make sure I don't end up becoming one. I'll also let you choose the sport you want to play. Just PLEASE don't choose golf. It's not that fun to watch. I'm not a big baseball fan either, and your dad doesn't like soccer. So I think that leaves you with football and basketball. Just kidding... Choose what you want (just not golf!).

I'm thinking about my competitiveness right now because we're (me and you) in a competition to win some cool stuff. The main thing for you is a breast pump... You've gotta eat right? I'll need one of these when I go back to work. I think I've been driving some people crazy begging for votes but ya know what? It's ok! Here's a lesson for you Spawnie: "Those who mind, don't matter, those who matter don't mind." But only use that for noble causes ok? That saying doesn't work if you're doing something ridiculous.

Next, I'm just so excited to meet you! I know you have a lot more cooking to do, but it's just the craziest thing being pregnant. I'm so grateful for the opportunity and I really don't want to take it for granted. I told you last week I feel you move sometimes now. Most of the time it feels like tiny bubbles popping but once the other night it felt like a muscle spasm. I'm not sure if it was my muscle or you kicking like crazy!

I'm already thinking about the things that we're going to do once you get here. I can't wait to carry you around in different kinds of wraps and take you on trips with me. I'm really hoping we'll be able to save enough money so we can spend the whole 12 weeks off together. I hope to take you to see family in Utah and Georgia and maybe even friends at a blog conference in New York!

You're about the size of an avocado now... It seems as though my different sites are agreeing on the food you're equivalent to this week. You're about 4 1/2 inches long now, but in the next few weeks you'll go through a BIG growth spurt and in the next few weeks you'll DOUBLE your weight from about 3 1/2 oz right now. I have a feeling you're bigger. I was 7lbs 3 oz and your Dad was 10 pounds 2 oz. I'm hoping you're not that big. I'm sure that would make you cute and chubby but possibly painful to push out. Either way I'll be happy to see you and grateful that you're healthy.

One thing I read that you're developing this week is your sense of hearing loud noises. Our smoke alarm went off a couple of times this week (mommy's cooking) and I was thinking you probably heard that. I'm going to start playing music to you soon so you can start to get some rhythm. I'm also curious to see if you're recognize the songs after you're born.
We had an appointment today and got to hear your heartbeat again. I remember to record it this time so I could hear it over and over again and I LOVE the sound. I can't stop smiling when I listen to it. Last time your heartbeat was in the 160s this time it was 148. You kept swimming away though so we had to chase your little heartbeat around. The nurse said you're very active. We scheduled our next appointment for three weeks from now and we'll find out if you're a boy or a girl! I can't wait!!

People at work say I'm showing now. I think it's cause I was so small to begin with and you have no place to go but out. Oh! I gained 4 pounds this last month!

I'm so overly excited about you and everything about you and it's really feeling more real. My friends tell me you're going to start kicking a lot more and keeping me up and night and stuff but I don't mind... I can't wait! I can't wait to show you off and play with you and kiss your cheeks!

Although you're not even a pound yet I'm already so proud of you! If when you're growing up I act a little crazy, and over protective, and overzealous I'm sorry. But don't worry... You're mom is a little crazy but it's because I love you!

Love,

Mommy

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Question of the day: Did you play music for your baby while you were pregnant with them? Do you think they remembered any songs after?

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